Music has always been more than just a collection of sounds for me. It’s been a lifeline, a form of expression, and ultimately, a path to healing. As someone who has struggled with chronic depression and anxiety, I’ve discovered that music therapy can be a powerful tool for mental health.
My musical journey began at the age of eight when I started piano lessons. I was a child in an Air Force family, and music was one of the few constants in my life as we moved from place to place. I dreamed of becoming a composer and concert pianist, but my journey wasn’t without its challenges.
Throughout my teens and early adulthood, I grappled with feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt. I compared myself to my peers and often felt I fell short. These feelings were compounded by physical limitations – my small hands made it difficult to play certain pieces, and I was even advised to consider surgery to “elongate” and create what is called an octave reach (meaning I could reach from the root note to the 8th note in a scale using my thumb and fifth or “pinky” finger). This is done by cutting the skin between the thumb and forefinger, and the ring finger and pinky. Looking back, I’m grateful I didn’t take that drastic and painful step.
As I struggled with depression and anxiety, I realized that my negative self-talk had rewired my brain over time. However, just as our brains can be conditioned to react negatively, they can also be retrained to find peace and calm. This is where music became my salvation.
In times of stress and uncertainty, I’ve found solace in creating and listening to music. During my pregnancy with twins, I started a practice of listening to soft music while sleeping. This helped me relax and became a tool for managing stress and anxiety in the years that followed as I dealt with personal and professional loss and a second pregnancy well into my 40s.
Music has become my outlet for expression and healing. When words fail, melodies speak. I’ve learned to channel my emotions into songwriting, using it as a form of music therapy to process my experiences and feelings. This practice has been instrumental in my journey towards better mental health.
For those struggling with depression, anxiety, or other mental health challenges, I encourage you to explore the healing power of music. Whether it’s listening to your favorite songs, learning an instrument, or writing your own melodies, music can provide a unique form of release and self-expression.
Remember, your reality is self-made, and you have the power to shape it. Music therapy can be a powerful ally in this process, helping you to find your voice, express your emotions, and create positive change in your life.
In conclusion, music is more than just entertainment—it’s a powerful tool for mental health and self-discovery. So the next time you’re feeling low, turn up the volume on your favorite song, pick up an instrument, or write your own melody. You might be surprised at the healing you’ll find in each and every individual note.
